30 Day Trans Challenge: Day 22. How did you choose your name, and what names were you thinking about using and why?Well I've always liked the name Kyle. Nothing really had me emotionally attached the name- I just have always really liked it.I knew that I liked it completely when I went to visit my brother Nikolai you see. I took the train to the city to stay 5 days and nobody called me by Kyle. Or even tried to be honest. It was very annoying and I didn't like it one bit.Anyway, I forgot to mention that I only had told a few people online and my mum who told my dad then told my sister Rosemary. My mum doesn't quite get it but is trying though when I told her she said in these words,"You'll always be my beautiful little girl."Which hurt alot for me since, No. I am not a little girl. I am a 14 going on 15 year old Guy. Sure my body says otherwise, but that isn't anyone's business other than my own. You know? Someone's body shouldn't be able to define who a person is.If you'r
30 Day Trans Challenge: Day 88) How do you deal with being read mis-genderd in the beginning of transitioning by people?Sadly I am still at the very beginning of my transition. As much as it annoys me when people assume that I'm a chick- I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that I don't even see myself as passing yet. Though sadly I feel like I'm stuck in limbo since I don't see myself as a girl fortunately. But not so much a guy yet. But meh, appearances change over time. Once I'm further into my transition I'm sure that I'll feel better and more confident about that.Right now I'm still living off of girl's skinny jeans which make me feel like a chicken. Along with tight shirts and sports bras. But my birthday is coming and if I get any money I'll buy my first binder from underworks. Yey binders! I'm really excited because sports bras don't do a thing. It's just like going around without anything on for me
Though like I mentioned before-I'm very petite.BLAH. Boobs is a cool word and I enjoy ma
30 Day Trans Challenge: Day 3-43)"Have you ever been outed?"No not yet, And hopefully not ever. I mean sometimes it's hard to pass for me since I have yet to go shopping for guy clothes let alone a binder. //le sighSo most of the time I just come off as a tom boy for most. Hopefully that'll get better..4)"How did your family take it when you came out/ if you're not out, why aren't you?"Well; after talking it over with a handful of supportive friends over facebook that I know in person and a few online- I told my mum. I started out with asking how she felt when my big brother (I mentioned before) came out to her- stating that he was gay when he was 16. After we talked abit about that she asked me if I liked girls, catching onto what my intentions of the entire conversation was. I then told her that it was abit more than then, alot more than just that.I told her that I was uncomfortable with my body and that I've been feeling this way for a long while. That I was a f2m Trans. She was a bit confused
30 Day Trans Challenge: Day 1When did you learn the term "transgender" referred to you?That's Hannah up there.Well, You see I grew up in a Christian house with 5 older siblings (3 sisters and 1 brother). Yes, I grew up as a little girl and never really heard the term Trans till about the age of twelve or so. During that time I knew there was something different about me compared to the other kids I played with but obviously didn't really pay much attention to it. My friends and I played "imaginary games" Where now I'd just call it poor roleplay. hah. But they always had me play the boy roles and told me that I'd make a really cool guy or that I'd be better as one. Which only furthered my confusion though I didn't think too much into it. Once I started 6th grade I instantly became best friends with this girl named Lucy. I found her adorable, really nice, cool, and slowly found that my feelings drifted from best friend to love interest I guess. So one night when I slept over she kisse
Then by All Means...... Send me to hellIf something as pureAs sweet, sweet, ever lasting loveIs a sin?Then by all means, send me to hellIf the factThat I am willing to DIEFor the one I loveIf the factour loveIsn't as good as yoursThen by all means, send me to hellAt least I knowThat if I cannot spend a true eternity with her hereBut I can thereThen by all means, send me to hellI'll shield her from the engulfing flames of itI'll fend off the devil himselfI'll keep her safe and happyAnd if the only way I can do this is thereThen by all means, send me to hellI do not fearNor loath itMy only fearIs for youBecause what you do, too, is sinThen by all meansI'll see you there too.
The ClosetThe monsters aren't in the closet.The monsters are outside.When we grew up we realizedThat in there's where we should hide.They chased us in here with their knivesAnd framed us for our "crimes".They point and say, "Beware the closet!Monsters are inside!"I hear them talk about "my kind"Through cracks between the door.All I ask is for respect,How could I ask for more?The hateful glares, those judging looksAnd all the dreadful thingsAssault my waking momentsand stalk me in my dreams.I shake and shiver, whimper and stir,Safe inside my closet.But safeness seems so temporarywhen outside foes appall it.We've done no wrong but it's not safeTo expose my self and soul.I lock it in a box to hideWhere no one else will go.I know there's others out thereWho left to face the worldBut some are not as brave as theyWho never did return.The monsters aren't in the closet.The monsters are outside.But here I sit and here I wait'till I can leave with PRIDE.