30 Day Trans Challenge: Day 22. How did you choose your name, and what names were you thinking about using and why?Well I've always liked the name Kyle. Nothing really had me emotionally attached the name- I just have always really liked it.I knew that I liked it completely when I went to visit my brother Nikolai you see. I took the train to the city to stay 5 days and nobody called me by Kyle. Or even tried to be honest. It was very annoying and I didn't like it one bit.Anyway, I forgot to mention that I only had told a few people online and my mum who told my dad then told my sister Rosemary. My mum doesn't quite get it but is trying though when I told her she said in these words,"You'll always be my beautiful little girl."Which hurt alot for me since, No. I am not a little girl. I am a 14 going on 15 year old Guy. Sure my body says otherwise, but that isn't anyone's business other than my own. You know? Someone's body shouldn't be able to define who a person is.If you'r
The ClosetThe monsters aren't in the closet.The monsters are outside.When we grew up we realizedThat in there's where we should hide.They chased us in here with their knivesAnd framed us for our "crimes".They point and say, "Beware the closet!Monsters are inside!"I hear them talk about "my kind"Through cracks between the door.All I ask is for respect,How could I ask for more?The hateful glares, those judging looksAnd all the dreadful thingsAssault my waking momentsand stalk me in my dreams.I shake and shiver, whimper and stir,Safe inside my closet.But safeness seems so temporarywhen outside foes appall it.We've done no wrong but it's not safeTo expose my self and soul.I lock it in a box to hideWhere no one else will go.I know there's others out thereWho left to face the worldBut some are not as brave as theyWho never did return.The monsters aren't in the closet.The monsters are outside.But here I sit and here I wait'till I can leave with PRIDE.
30 Day Trans Challenge: Day 88) How do you deal with being read mis-genderd in the beginning of transitioning by people?Sadly I am still at the very beginning of my transition. As much as it annoys me when people assume that I'm a chick- I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that I don't even see myself as passing yet. Though sadly I feel like I'm stuck in limbo since I don't see myself as a girl fortunately. But not so much a guy yet. But meh, appearances change over time. Once I'm further into my transition I'm sure that I'll feel better and more confident about that.Right now I'm still living off of girl's skinny jeans which make me feel like a chicken. Along with tight shirts and sports bras. But my birthday is coming and if I get any money I'll buy my first binder from underworks. Yey binders! I'm really excited because sports bras don't do a thing. It's just like going around without anything on for me
Though like I mentioned before-I'm very petite.BLAH. Boobs is a cool word and I enjoy ma